Good-bye.....

As I write this post, I am already telling myself "do not cry, do not cry" because after 2 days of non-stop crying, my poor eyes are in desperate need of a break. Today my eyes finally look somewhat normal and I am going to try my best to keep them that way (plus Vicki and the kids are coming to visit so that is a little extra motivation as well).

So, yes...we are saying good-bye....and moving to Indiana. It was a very emotional very tough decision but in the end it was an opportunity that Brian just couldn't not pass up. The town we are moving to is VERY small (think no mall, no Target, one grocery store, 2 schools,..etc) but it does put us an hour closer to my family. Everyone seems very nice and has nothing but good to say about the town, the schools, and raising a family there. Even with all its potential, it still makes my heart ache to think about leaving life as I know it. Every time I think about saying good-bye to Jen I burst into tears (and the flood gates are open), the entire T family, our church, Will's school, BSF,.... It is so very emotional for me and I haven't been handling it too gracefully. I know that God laid this on Brian's heart. He is so confident about this decision and I need to accept his leadership and God's plan for our life. I need to refocus so that I can see God's hand at work and be thankful for all that he has done and is continuing to do for us. I wrote this scripture down this morning and I am going to put it in my pocket and carry it around with me for a couple days. It is one of my favorites...

Isiah 41:10

So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

I know I must put my hope and trust in God. I must find my joy in Him and not in my circumstance, in people, or in things. This is certainly going to be a journey, a test of my faith, and an opportunity to allow God to do some mighty things.