Big Day

Yes, it was a big day around here. Will had his first unofficial day of preschool (sigh). Not only was he nervous, but we were as well. My dear friend Jennifer kept Abby so that Brian and I could both take him and go out to lunch afterwards. It worked out perfectly. Evidently Abby had a big time with her friends Edie and Houston and we had a big time with Will.
On a scale of 1-10, I would give this morning a 5. It could have gone worse...but it could have gone better. It was very overwhelming....18 little preschoolers in one room. New school, new teacher, new routines, new kids...lots of new and that is something Will doesn't always do so well with....but then again...who does. I know with time he will get more comfortable, make some new friends, and eventually enjoy it. There is just a lot to get used to. We were only there 45 minutes today. It was a quick meet and greet so the real first day of school will be Monday. No mom, no dad, carpool drop off line, and pick up 3 hours later. (BIG sigh).

Will was definitely more excited about preschool after we left. He jibber jabbered about it in the car for a while. It was just all so new. My heart aches just thinking about Monday. He is growing up so fast. I love him so much and miss him already just thinking about it. He has such a tender heart and is such an innocent little kid. Part of me just wants to yank him out and home school him forever while the other part of me is fully aware that he needs this time for his overall well-being and social development. I think one of the saddest parts of parenthood is how your success as a parent is measured. If you can raise God fearing, self-sufficient, self-supportive children then you have done your job well. It is almost as if you are teaching your children not to need you and anything less than that isn't fair to them. I pray, with God's help, I will teach my children to be dependent on Jesus Christ and not me or Brian. I pray that I will learn to let my children go and have them come back to me because they want to...not because I've made them feel like they have to. I just love my little family so much. Will's teacher.