Major Neglect

Oh I have been so very neglectful of my blog. Please forgive me. Many excuses--some good, some not--I will try to do better.
Last week was just one of those tough weeks as a mom. I found myself even questioning if I am cut out to be a stay-at-home-mom. For as wonderful as it is, it can sure be an isolating, lonesome, tough job. By far, it is the hardest job I have ever had. Teaching school was not an easy..all the take home work, disrespectful students, tough parents, even tough co-workers, but there is no pressure like the pressure you feel when the kids are your own...truly your own...not just for a year...but for a life time (God willing). I put a lot of pressure on myself to do a good job with Will and Abby, to try and teach them as much as I can, be patient with them, and shower them with love but there are just some days..I guess even weeks...I feel like they deserved more than I gave them. I suppose that is just motherhood....or just life. Fortunately, I live under God's grace and it is new each day. I am so very thankful for that.

We have been having such a hard time with Will and the whole potty issue. The kid just doesn't like to poo. I have never seen anything like it. He will hold it and hold it and hold it until he is absolutely miserable and this is with two teaspoons of milk of magnesia a day plus extra fiber in his diet. It is crazy. I can't even get him to go in his diaper much less on the potty. Sigh.

I can't think of much else exciting to report. I have now worked at the consignment store two times and it is work..let me tell ya. I don't sit down for a second. I'm not sure how much longer or how often I will do it since she just wants to pay me (cash) $6 an hour or $5 an hour with a slight discount. It is not even minimum wage and the opportunity cost alone (Brian rushing home from work, being away from my family,..etc) make it almost not worth it. I suppose it was fun (or should I say different) while it lasted.

I have been feeling a bit under the weather so I am hoping a trip to the dr. tomorrow will shed some light on what's going on. It seems to come and go but I am ready for it to be gone.
My bible study begins Thursday and I am super excited. It is called the Amazing Collection and we are starting with Genesis and ending in Revelation. A two year study! I am sure it will be every bit of "Amazing". I have also joined a MOPS group and our first meeting is Friday. I am looking forward to meeting some other moms in the same stage of life that I am in. It promises to be a busy, but hopefully fun week. I will keep you posted.